A Smile Worth A Thousand Words

These were the days, when I laughed so hard that I didn't care to hide my crooked smile. I'd like to think if I wrote a book about that year of 2010, this would be the picture on the cover of the book. That year had struggles that I wasn't so sure I could overcome, but this night was one of those nights that proved to me I would be okay. You can't tell by the expression on my face, but that was a tough day. That smile is real though. In that moment when the camera flashed, I forgot all the things that I thought would nearly break me.
This is a toast to the friends who got my through the tough times, and to the nights we stayed out until I forgot what was troubling me. Sometimes I didn't want to smile, but smiling is what helps you move on. Looking at this picture makes me realize that having a good time is possible even if you are struggling with something else. There's a point when you just have to let go, even if you are unsure whether tears or laughter will come bursting out.
All I can think is that I miss these days. I made too many mistakes, I gave up too often, but I had some of the best times of my life. I was happy, and when I wasn't, it was easy to pretend like I was. A smile doesn't come so easily, or naturally anymore. A smile like that picture is a little harder to come by these days. Smiles like that are few and far between. But after all, maybe the smile isn't caused by happiness, but carelessness. I'm growing up, and I miss the carelessness of it all.